Granted she didn't know it was only 5 minutes early. It would have been lunch time they way she screamed and carried on. I set her to bed because she had a melt down about using the bathroom upstairs while her little sister was using the downstairs bathroom. What a horrible thing I made her do!!
So, anyway....a freshly baked coconut cupcake and a few cookies later I started to feel better. Then the guilt of what I ate sat in and i did my stupid stupid prenatal workout and felt a little better. But still the words kept ringing in my ear..".just quit she already thinks you are awful. You have already ruined her. Stop trying to be a good mom. You aren't cut out for this"
At that moment I decided i was going to check my email one last time and then go to bed and read a book. The day is over. I cant fix today I cant only work on tomorrow.
I then came across this video that was on a blog i follow. This women may not share the same exact beliefs I do, but her story made my stupid story look like nothing. She made me think that I can do better than what I am doing. Tomorrow is a NEW day and a NEW start.